This sucks so bad. I feel like I've been sick every other week. My sister has a cold, started with a sore throat, now she is stuffy and coughing and sneezing. Now, guess what? I have a sore throat. It's not even a little sore, its A LOT sore. I have trouble sleeping when I am not feeling good, whether it is a sore throat, stuffy nose, or headache..it doesn't matter, I can't fall asleep. Well last night I didn't sleep much. I contemplated just staying awake until it was time for work this morning, but I ended up getting a few hours of sleep. I know this is just the beginning too, the stuffiness and headaches and such are still to come. AND ITS MY BIRTHDAY WEEK. I'm also scheduled to work extra hours this week. I'm really pissed. I can't be pissed at my sister, it's not like she got me sick on purpose. It's a small house and I was bound to catch it. It's just bad timing. This is really like the 5th time I've been sick this year and its only March.
Anyways, to change the subject, I think I am going to make it out to LA. To live. I've been doubting it a lot. When I was in high school I told myself that all I wanted to do was move out to LA and work in the entertainment business. I don't care what I am doing, I just want to work in it somehow. My DREAM would be to be a writer or maybe even producer. As I got older, I kind of lost hope and thought it would never happen. I have a lot of things working against me. For one, money. I have no money. I actually have negative money. I owe A LOT. Student loans, car payments, etc. And I never even graduated college, which is something else working against me. Third, I am kind of scared. I get lonely very easily and I don't know too many people out there. I know a few, but I am not close friends with them or anything. This is something I would have to do on my own. No one is going with me. I recently got motivated again. I received an email from someone who works out there and he basically told me if I don't try it, I will regret it. I don't want to grow up and think about what could have been if I tried. It's worth a shot, I owe it to myself to try. If it doesn't work out, it doesn't work out, but I gotta give it a shot. I can't go right now. I need to start saving up. Ideally I would like to be out there by this time two years from now. I think I can make it happen. I am scared, but excited at the same time.
Alright, I'm gonna get going, I have some kids here who don't want to go to class and it's my responsibility to make sure they go. This should be fun...
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