Tuesday, January 26, 2010

I woke up way too early today..

My alarm was set for..right now..but the delivery man for the brand new HDTV decided to show up at 7:40 and get the dogs all riled up. Dad decided that when I get back from LA it's time to switch from direct tv and sbc internet to the new AT&T Uverse thingy. We'll see how it goes. I am excited about faster internet. And I guess i'm excited about more channels. Annnd...now I will actually have HDTV on my HD TV instead of regular tv and my HD playstation. Oh and I almost forgot..i will FINALLY have a DVR. That should make my life alot easier. No more taping things on VHS. I'm a little behind the times with that, haha. I dunno..i'm not as excited about it as i could be. I'm still not feeling 100% normal with everything.

You know how a few blogs ago I talked about how chicago sucks because I will ultimatley see people from my past that I don't care to ever see again? In the past 3 or so days...I saw 3 of them. And I don't live in a small town or anything...its freakin chicago. Before I went to LA I could go months without seeing anyone. I guess its just my luck. It wasn't HORRIBLE, only one of the people was bad enough to get my blood pumping, but still. I've come so far, I really don't want to see anyone ever again. After I figure things out for myself I really need to consider maybe moving away from here. But not now..I'm not ready yet.

On another note...why can't people be honest? Wouldn't life be easier if everyone just told the truth? I guess thats debatable, but I believe that it would be better. I hate liars...anyone who knows me knows that. And even more than just lying..i hate when people avoid the truth or do everything they can to skip around it and and pretend it doesn't exist. Just tell me. I will get over it if it's bad. I drive myself crazy when I think something is wrong...i overthink and I go through every possible scenario in my head to figure out what is going on when in reality, i have no idea. I'm sure I make a bigger deal out of it than it really is...but if I knew what was going on, i could just rest easy. I've been driving myself crazy about this certain scenario for a week now and I think i have to just let it go. It's not worth it anymore. It is what it is...I'm sure I will figure it out eventually.

Anyways, its time for work. I already know today I am going to be exhausted...i didn't get much sleep last night. Maybe i'll try and take a nap or something when I get home from work...before NCIS comes on, haha.

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